where life meets style
Recently, my schedule has been full of Things I Would Rather Not Be Doing. This includes (but is not limited to) talking Henry through a panic attack at the doctor’s office (twice! yay!) and worrying about fifth grade basketball drama (don’t even ask). Not surprisingly, the stress has been bleeding over into all the rest of the things I do, including quite a few things I usually enjoy doing.
I’ve signed up for two half marathons this fall; the first is this weekend. I’ve been training, but it’s been a slog — between the weather and the kids and the stress, I’ve struggled to get my miles in, and the miles I’ve run have not been particularly enjoyable. Running was starting to feel like one more thing I had to do, not something I chose to do.
It was getting me down. And then one morning, slogging along, trying to get my miles in, I remembered that I run because I want to. Period.
Running isn’t an obligation, it’s an opportunity.
I don’t have to run every day; I don’t have to sign up for races. I do those things because I choose them. Running gives me a chance to get out of my comfort zone, to see new places, to meet new people. It also gives me a chance to step away from the stress of my everyday life and just be somewhere else.
My runs have been better recently. I’m looking forward to this weekend’s half marathon. Finally.
I’m trying to see more things in my life as opportunities, rather than obligations, particularly the things I dislike doing. And I’m realizing that most of what’s on my to-do list every day can really be thought about as an opportunity, even the things that seem mundane. That includes the things that seem stressful — the things I would rather avoid. I’m also thinking about how opportunities aren’t always shiny and happy and fun. A long run is an opportunity to get stronger and faster, but it’s hard work, and it can be painful. Literally.
My day is full of opportunities. Some of them are easy to see, and some are harder. But I’m looking for them, closely and carefully.